to be honest, im tryin to make myself happy. reali. im dam scared deep dwn inside. i noe i hafta go thru another painful op. an op whr i'll be awake. and i noe its monday. ok maybe not monday.

but if its not monday sth more painful gna happen. k here's de plan for my lung. if monday's checkup shows negative results, meaning de air in my chest increases, it means my lung de hole is not closing up, therefore dey gta pull out de current tube AND INSERT A MUCH BIGGER TUBE. and i hafta get admitted. it sux. if de air disappears, den de tube comes off and finish. im normal again. wad abt if de air remains de same? den i remain de same. so... all de possibilities is gna suck for mi. all leads to pain, who wudnt get scared. i dowan monday to come, at de same time i want... i dun lyk dis feeling at all.

im organising a mahjong session tml, kip my mind pre-occupied frm

tinking so much. i just wana enjoy my days. anything can happen in an op. dere are risks. hope i can spend dis weekend well. if u read dis, dun pity me. shit i typed to fast, de stitch pricked mi. =.= anws if u are reading dis, im not asking for ur pity, i just want your company. ;)

shall post an interesting picture.

Synchronised sleeping :D